08/30/2023
Recently, I was asked to answer these three questions. Who is God to me? Why do I think that? And How do I know my idea of God is true? I was also asked not to give the “churchy” answer, but to be real with myself. Who is God, really, to me? It is a though-provoking question with a purpose because my idea of who God is affects every decision I make; it affects how I live my life. You see, if God is real, if God is true (Jesus said he was truth), then God is like gravity, or the North star, or the sun that rises every morning in the East, or the ocean tides that roll in and roll out. Just like 2+2 is always 4, who God is does not change regardless of my acceptance or belief. Knowing the truth about God does not change Him, it changes me.
So, who IS God to me? Do I, like Eve, wonder if God is holding out on me? Am I tempted to act out on my own, to get what I think God won’t give me? The answer is yes. Yes, too many times. In lonely times I tend to strike out on my own looking for someone or something to fill that empty space of time, but the empty space of time is really an empty space in my heart. Too many times, I look at my pocketbook and think it insufficient, so I do not give like I should. Too many times, I think of my wants instead of seeing how I can meet the needs of another. Too many times my actions are opposite of what I claim to believe, so, my cry is “Lord, I believe, help my unbelief.”
Who then is God to me? He is my Rock and my Salvation. He is the Author and Perfector of my faith. He knows my every need before I even ask, but wants me to ask so I can experience His presence. He is my Peace. He is Truth. He is the One I turn to in time of need. He is my Protector, and I know nothing comes to me that is not first filtered through His fingers of Grace. His joy is my Strength. He is faithful, even when I am not because He cannot deny Himself. He is the One who works in me to give me the will to follow Him. He is my King and Lord and I pray I trust Him more each day.
Why do I think this? Through faith, and not the kind of faith that checks its brain at the door. Historical evidence shows Jesus lived, died, and was resurrected. Lee Strobel, an investigative journalist, spent two years researching to prove the Bible false and Jesus a farce, but in the end, the proof pointed to the only truth: Jesus is real. He lived, was crucified, died, and was resurrected to life again. Strobel said there was more evidence for the resurrection of Jesus than for the life of Shakespeare!
I also believe because of experience. Scripture says the heart is deceitful above all else, so I cannot depend upon my feelings, yet the great writers of the New Testament: Paul and John and Peter say that I have a conscience that can convict me of wrong, but if it does not, then I can have confidence before God, AND my life will bear witness of my faith. So, what I believe about God changes me. Scripture says the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, so I become a fruit inspector, and I start with myself. Peter says that God has given me everything I need to live a life of godliness, but that it is my responsibility to add diligence, moral excellence, knowledge, self-control, perseverance, godliness, brotherly kindness, and love. God gives me everything, but I must apply and live out His grace. Peter says that practicing these things gives me assurance that I am the King’s kid, a princess, forgiven, loved, and sealed with the Holy Spirit who will one day deliver me into the very presence of the King Himself.
Finally, I can know beyond a shadow of a doubt because I have experienced God. I have felt His presence in my prayers. I have known his Peace that transcends circumstance. I have experienced His grace and provision and the joy of his presence. I have heard his voice, felt his comfort. So, is my life perfect? HA! Far from it, but Jesus has seen me through. He has walked with me during the hard times, laughed with me during the good, and there is no better feeling than knowing I have pleased my Father. He longs to bless me, but so often I stand in the way. Lord, help me trust You more that I might glorify You.