12/01/2015
"I hit rock bottom two years ago when I found myself alone, ridden with guilt and shame, depressed, hopeless, and paralyzed with fear. I made a life changing decision and was unfaithful in my marriage of 2 years. I would look at myself in the mirror not knowing who I was and how I had found myself in this place, in my own "hell on earth.” This made me question who Jesus truly was to me. I lived a life knowing "about" Jesus--what He did for me on the cross, following a list of do's and don'ts, trying to be a "good person" and do the right things. However, I failed to have a real personal relationship with Jesus--truly knowing Him as my personal Lord and Savior. This lack of relationship with Jesus led me to a life of bo***ge: to idolatry, self sufficiency, selfishness, control, and the pursuit of anything that made me happy or content. My identity was found in everything but Jesus. And because of it, I fell prey to the lies and attacks of the enemy--and ultimately the decision that changed my life forever.
Meet GRACE.
Jesus met me in my brokenness. Right where I was. He "lifted me out of my out of despair and set my feet on solid ground..." (Psalm 40:2) THIS is grace. I know it on a deep level. Not because I have given it but because I have received it--not because of anything I did, or the fact that I deserved it, but because of His amazing love and adoration and favor toward me.
HE is my identity
But there is such beauty in this struggle. And this is where grace comes in....
'Jesus, You are enough.' "