03/17/2026
Savonna, M: My testimony is a confusing one, because while God has always been a part of my life, I felt like he wasnāt always a part of my familyās life. Even so, I always knew He was real, but I struggled to believe that He could truly help me through my life. I thought I had to be perfect in order to be loved by Him.
When I was younger, around ages 10 to 13, I was bullied for everything that made me who I am. Because of that, I found comfort in isolation and anger, and in that pain, I ended up hurting others too. During that time, I reached a point where I felt completely alone and began to think about leaving this world. I believed God wouldnāt save me from my depression or make people kinder to me, so I questioned what the point of staying was.
One day, I took a nap, and in that nap I had a dream that felt more real than anything I had ever experienced. I saw myself in surgery, and the Lord Himself was operating on meāon my brain, my heart, and every part of me that was broken. I was terrified, but when I woke up, I felt completely different. It was like I had been drowning, and He brought me back to life, breathing new life into me. At first, I thought God had only saved me in that one moment, but over time I realized He had been saving me every single day, even when I couldnāt see it.
Recently, I realized my testimony isnāt over. On my first mission trip to Daytona, Florida with Cru, I experienced a very similar dream again. But this time when he was performing surgery he stayed in the organs. I couldnāt see what he was doing, it was like he knew I didnāt need to know what he was shifting because I would feel the shift when it was time. And when I woke up, God showed me that I am in a new chapterāone where I am called to share my story and grow through Him. Iāve learned that I need people in this journey, even those who reject Him. Instead of responding with anger, God is teaching me to pray for those who hurt me and to never āpick up the rock.ā Every day, he continues to lead, grow, and teach me. I am learning to trust Him not because I am perfect, but because He loves me exactly where I amāand my testimony is still being written. John 15:5