02/27/2026
I’ve gone through 68 surgeries, have dozens of tumors throughout my body, live in chronic pain, have a very high risk of cancer and other complications and conditions and have multiple irreversible conditions caused by my NF1. Nevertheless I live because of God and hes asked me to do one thing, lead others to him and serve him. Yet I still get the questions every Christian always gets.
"Why does God let bad things happen?"
The answer is simple: God doesn't. Allowing something to happen implies no consequences for bad actions. God gave us the freedom to choose between good and bad, and bad actions have consequences. The good get rewarded, and the evil are punished harshly.
One thing I’ve heard a lot is: Why do you think a God who “loves you” would give you your condition? To be honest, I don’t know. But I do know that God has His reasons and His will for my life, whether I understand them or not. His purpose for my life has made it better.
What is that purpose?: to help others that no one else can. My condition has given me the opportunity to lead others to Christ and help others with addiction that no one else could get through. Going through what I go through shows the power of God in a way no one else can. I’m not special, strong, unique or powerful but God is and while I’m not sure why God has chosen me to prove his power in an amazing way I’m thankful for it.
“Thou therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. And the things that thou hast heard of me among many witnesses, the same commit thou to faithful men, who shall be able to teach others also. Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier. And if a man also strive for masteries, yet is he not crowned, except he strive lawfully.”
Be strong in the Lord and trust in his will for your life. Strive for that walk with God and the blessings will follow after.
