07/07/2025
Faithfully Delivered by the works of God…… follow me for a minute here.
After a much needed visit to see Jason we dove into some really deep conversation. We analyzed where God is in our story. Like not surface level but at all levels. See when God has a plan for deliverance not a thing is going to stop Him.
Picture it: Family Camp 2024. The big issue right….? Wrong! While yes from a human perspective there were a couple massive issues that are easy to focus on. But God saw deeper. He said it’s time to refine, sanctify, shake, rattle and roll. God knew that while there were surface level wounds from Jay loosing his son, God was looking at our marriage and saying this isn’t serving my kingdom. This is not in alignment to me. So God has moved in ways that neither of us realized we needed Him to move in.
For me I remember pleading with the hospital, rehabs, God himself for someone to step in and “save” My husband. Satan had him by the throat and had Jay convinced that the loss of his child was his fault. The punishment for his sins. With tears pouring from his eyes he hands me everything and says make sure my little girl goes to college. Save this for her but I have to go see my son. I can’t do another day with out him. This is my fault. Can you imagine!! My heart sunk. Where anger stood panic flooded me. I scrambled for options. I was told unless Jason says he wants to kill himself we can’t take your word so baker act was not an option. Mental hospital same script. Two men from The Hope Center drove to my house with in the hour to grab Jay and take him back. They succeeded next day Jay was gone and back on a mission. So what’s the point to sharing this? What’s the message. Let’s keep going…
As his wife now this choice is laid on me how do I save him? I prayed and prayed. I cried knowing that with each hour he was downing alcohol. The hospital says his numbers are not good but for whatever reason they let him go again! Gotta love the laws that prohibit medical staff to make a life threatening call in these circumstances but they tried. I said God help me. The only other choice shy of me “kidnapping him” and tieing him up or holding him hostage on our home which I asked and I would habe went to jail was to walk into his probation officer’s office and plead with him to get Jay off the streets. I knew this broke trust between a husband and wife, who locks up the person they love? I knew when the dust settled there was a chance of prison. I knew there was a chance he would look at me with betrayal and hate me. And I was right. He did. But what I chose was him to live. I knew God needed to get ahold of him or Heaven wasn’t possible. I need Jay needed to be saved and I wasn’t able to do it. He needed Devine intervention. But so did I.
As months have gone on Jason explained how people have said I’m evil, how could I do this? People pleaded with him to be done with his marriage. But now God… his Chaplin steps in listening to Jason angry, confused, vengeful, prideful and says, “ Did you want to die? Were you trying to drink yourself to death?” Jason says yes. Then the Chaplin told him had your wife not been strong enough to lock you up your parents, kids and family would have been begging for this senario instead of a headstone. You let go of your marriage focus on God and surrender and allow God to lead you.
Chilling thought. But now God has revealed to me how I didn’t see Jason’s gifts, I didn’t allow God to work in him because I was always trying to save him. I placed Jason above God. Not intentionally but truthfully. I couldn’t love him right because I was always at war when i can’t win the war waged against Jason only Jesus can conquer death and forgive sins. I nagged, I was always angry, I wanted a Biblical marriage without really surrendering everything to Jesus. I had missed so many key points to a covenant marriage. I wasn’t submissive, I wasn’t honoring I was trying to be Jason’s savior not his wife.
So, what happens if nothing changes? Nothing changes! God had to remove Jason from the clutches of the world. I got to speak briefly with one of the men that preach on Sundays today and he said so many men would prefer to stay in prison where they have found Jesus then to go home because their families are still addicts, alcoholics, sinful, needing money. There’s not a foundation in Christ and these men don’t know how to go home and be spiritual leaders to a home that doesn’t honor God. The man was telling me there’s a gentleman in Jason’s unit who is due for release and his family members want him back selling drugs because they need to come back up and he wants to commit another crime to stay in prison because parole is sending him back home and his home is broken and he doesn’t know where to begin to fix it. This broke my heart.
What I am learning is God doesn’t play about His chosen people but Satan is so nasty and blinds people with “good works”, being good hearted, being nice and thinking they have a strong foundation when they have built that foundation on sand. The enemy is so real. A real authentic relationship with God takes daily time, daily prayer, daily scripture, daily war room fighting. We are living in a broken, fallen world that is getting worse by the second. But just like Silas and Paul there is real warfare in these prisons. There’s men and women hungry for God because they have met the devil. And my husband is living proof of that. Had I not been brave and bold and walked into that probation office my husband may not be here or may have had it way worse but through the grace of God he is finally like Saul on the road to Damascus. God blinded him and lead him away from the path he was going and is speaking to him. The scales are coming off both of our eyes.
If you don’t believe in miracles and testimony sit tight because another one is on the way! Pray for the prisoners as if chained to them. Many people in this world could have been in prison to had they been caught. Many people could be dead had God not intervened. The kingdom is still a work in progress on Earth. So get busy!
