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12/17/2025

Just My Thoughts
By: Eugena Wells
Written: December 17, 2025

Grieving
And I hope it’s the last time
I have to grieve in 2025
Grieving a job that I loved
They cut me loose
While I was on leave
But they did it legally
So at least they left me
With a little money
To be honest
I loved that job
And hoped that would be
Where I would retire
But I ain’t tripping
I’m in my healing

I wasn’t able to be there
For your funeral
At your wake
Only 20 minutes
Was I allowed to take
Just to see you
And talk to you for a few seconds
I remember the dream
From the night before
Your funeral
You visited me
Laughing and joking
Like we used to do
The only thing That was different
Is you didn’t drop Your Big Mama Wisdom
That’s what it was like every phone call
And every visit
Big thanks and shout out to my mom
Who made sure I could say my goodbyes
Now I just sit and cry

So much grief
So much pain
So much guilt
So much shame
My life ain’t the same
That’s a Blessing
Yes I know
Turn this into a lesson
That’s for sure

I can take a shot for my birthday
Words I will never say again
Taking that shot
Almost cost me my life
My freedom
And my apartment

Recovery ain’t easy
Even after a year
Of sobriety
I started all over again
Why did I think
It was okay to sin
Drinking is not a sin
Yeah I know
But for a recovering alcoholic
It’s just a no-go
And my son
He told me
Ma you can’t have just one
But after a year of sobriety
Sad to say
I should’ve listened to my son

Mania and suicidal thoughts kept pulling me backwards
Even after being stable
I’m so tired of the labels
Bipolar
Schizoaffective
And then depressed
Man sometimes i feel like
Im just a mess

This is me just flowing
And getting back to my poetry
Im good
Trust
God got me
That’s a fact
This is just a lil thing
Called process and also
Just a lil test
Is my faith gon shake
Or will I stay 10 toes down
Throughout the day
I turn my frown
Upside down
Coping skills
Bilateral stimulation
Journaling
Coloring
And therapy too
AA is in the mix
Because I need that too

To be honest
Im tired of all of this medication
I wish that all it took
Was a lil meditation
But these attacks
Are on another level
I aint tripping
Definitely not scared of the devil
Isaiah 43
And Psalms 23
Proverbs 3:5-6
Romans 8:28
Just to name a few
Minister Eugena Wells
Yeah im getting back to my roots
I know im called and chosen
A just man falls
And gets back up
Fall down
Pick up My Crown
Realign
Follow The Signs
Rededicate My Life
My Lord and Savior
Gives me Grace
Thats why i can face
Any storm that comes my way

The inner me is sometimes
My enemy
Therefore
I gotta stay
Locked in
With His Word
Maybe even
Write a Song
Glorifying Him
Yeah let me make satan
Mad real quick
And if you dont believe
You should
I evangelize
I dont push
I can no longer compromise
And Im beginning to understand
What they mean
When they say
Don’t destroy your witness
I’m no role model
And im certainly
Not perfect
I’m just a human
Who believes
If at first you don’t succeed
Try until you do.




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