05/17/2026
Sometimes God allows messages written in one season to minister in another. I have written the message below in August, 2023, and I believe there's still purpose, encouragement, and I pray it reaches whoever needs it today.
After my arrest, my self-esteem and self-worth took a drastic nose-dive. It was already bad, now it was worse. Self-loathing and the victim stance filled my thoughts throughout the day. Not only that, but I continuously thought about those I’d hurt. There was no greater thought than “they must hate me.” Truth is, there were days I hated myself. How did this happen!?
In my mind, the covenant that I’d made with my feelings seemed – no, was, greater than the covenant I’d made with God. I now realize that’s exactly where the devil wanted me to be. And for those reading this today, that’s where the enemy wants you too; wrapped up in the continued thoughts of your failure, what you’ve done and how much you are devalued by people. Read the next statement over and over again until you get it – never allow your value and self-worth to be at the mercy of other people. Stop allowing what people say about you to be greater than what God says about you. Yep! It happened – you failed, I failed, we all failed! The Word of God is clear, “…for all has sinned and fallen short of the glory of God…” For all you self-righteous folk, that means you too. But, what are you gonna do now?
Here’s something that may help, after David sinned with Bathsheba, and all that entailed, when the child died, the Bible says in 2 Samuel 11:20, “…and David got up from the ground, he washed himself, anointed himself, changed his clothes, went into the Lord’s house and worshipped…” I had to, and continue to make that a daily routine. No, it will not be easy. As a matter of fact, it may be the hardest thing you do. Trust me, I know! I’m sure in the future, I’ll write more on this thought. Until then, rest in the amazing fact that God is absolutely, positively madly in love with you. And when you turn to Him, He will provide the courage and strength to make it through what you’re going through. Until next time….
Pastor Cordell A. Jenkins
Your prayers and support means everything in this season.