This morning I woke up to a beautiful pink color coming through my window. Took a few minutes to figure it out then it hit me....the crape myrtle outside was in full bloom and the sunlight was illuminating the color from the flowers. Then as I drank my coffee and planned on posting my daily Bible verse I thought I'd add a few things to it and went a different route of copy and past off of Biblegat
eway. Then opening up my facebook I see I have an email from someone that was recommended that I contact to help with what I believe is part of God's plan and path for me. Then decided to write a little something about this word and it's meaning in our walk with God. This then turned into my testimony. Revelation 12:11
They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death. Here it goes:
Today's word is on "Time" and not our time but God's time and His timing in our lives and the paths that He has each of us on. What He uses to move us forward, to teach us, to guide us. Each stopping point allows us to rest and to learn to wait and rely on Him. Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 really does describe our journey, 3:9-15 gives us the reasoning behind and 3:16-22 seems to give the writer's views on God's plans and actions. Lately I've been feeling more and more as if where God put me six years ago is finally coming to a plateau. God has given me a vision and a path, people along that path to help in this journey. Four and a half years in a new church has really allowed me to grow in God. Let me go back a little. I grew up in a "Christian" environment; went to church as a child with my grandmother and later my mother. Attended private school through High School. My thoughts, "I'm getting the Bible five days a week at school, I don't need church" and eventually stopped going to church, and eventually fully walking away from God and listening more and more to the world. Still keeping or trying to keep one foot on each side of "that" line. Looking for acceptance and love in the wrong places. Drinking and not respecting my body or self esteem, by jumping from guy to guy thinking one thing was the only way to find love. Not paying attention to how I hurt others or myself. Sometimes feeling the hurt of loneliness and thinking of ending it many times. But something always scared me away from further thoughts. One I believe was from God reminding me where I would end up and how it would affect the two people who always showed love no matter what to me, my parents. Eventually I backed away from people all together, because I felt I couldn't trust or be trusted. Isolating myself I began to come back to God, going back to church, changing the things I did, where I hung out, the music I listened to and the feeling of caring whether or not people accepted me (in or out of the church). It took me several years to find a home at the church I'm in now and several more to open up to people and learn who I could trust and couldn't. Today June 30th, 2015 I feel closer to God and His plan more and more than ever. And I know we aren't suppose to focus on the past but today I can't help but look and feel victorious! No more drunk nights or hangovers. No more feeling ashamed in the morning because I gave into false love. No more fear of possible cancer because of those false loves. No more wondering if I can trust myself or trust in God's people. No more thoughts of ending it all - I had an uncle who did on Dec. 25th, 2012 and I see even today the affects it can have. No more wandering around trying to figure it out. Today starts yet another page in this life and path. I can't fully see what He has in store, but I can trust no matter what He'll always be there. Jeremiah 29:11; Deut. 31:6,8; Joshua 1:5; 1 Kings 8:52; Prov. 3:3 and Hebrews 13:5
So much more can be said, but this is just an overview....
