05/13/2025
05-12-2015
A Word -4 Today
Hello Life Family,
I know that haven’t written anything in a few months now, and for that, I do apologize. Yet it hasn’t been for a lack of trying. I do try, then I retry, and then I find myself erasing it all, because I find myself, overthinking it. I worry about what people read, as there is a lot of garbage on Facebook, and I don’t ought to be another person, putting out content, just because. Having to deal with Cognitive Distortion, and PTSD was not apart of my 5 or 10 plans. And writing, was something that I loved doing. Now I find that my thoughts are often hijacked by other thoughts of indecision, frustration, fear.
I’m not any better than anyone else, and my pain is no worse than anyone else’s either. Yet pain is just one part of the many nerve centers that surge on and off, every day, and minute of the week. Mental, physical, and emotional pain. A life that I would have certainly checked out of, if not for having Christ living and working in my life. It was that and my Christian family at “Hope Church” that kept me looking forward, distracting me sometimes, one-day-at-a-time, away from hopelessness.
Living in pain, every day, for something a local Hospital did to me, causing me a life changing disability, could have distorted me. I know this, because it was many, many nights that I layed in my so called recovery beds, thinking up ways to take a life that I believed, because of pain and PTSD was over. In there, in that “recovery center”, they wanted me to recover just enough in body, so they could release me.
They wanted, needed my bed for the next person, never once caring for my mental health, as I was later diagnosis with PTSD. I told all of the Doctors, and most of the nurses that would listen, but no one cared, not enough to help do anything about it.
The only people that were there, visiting with me month after month, were my Boys, Gabe and Anthony, and those people I call my Church family. Find a Church, build and discover, just how much a relationship with Jesus, our Christ can help you, as it helped me. And with that, discover a family that will stick by you over, and over again.
Hope Church, Ceres Ca
God bless,
Life Ministries,
209-496-2857
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