11/11/2025
MY OWN FIGHT OF FAITH - Kenneth Hagin
In the earliest days of my life, I nearly lost out. I was sickly most of my life and bedfast for sixteen months with organic heart trouble and was almost completely paralyzed. The doctor told me that every tube in my chest was open and undeveloped. There was no operation that could help me.
I learned to pray the prayer of faith by reading the Scriptures, especially Mark 11:24 which says, “Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.” I believed that I had received healing for my heart before I actually saw my healing manifested. I began to say with my mouth that I believed I was healed according
to God’s Word.
People keep on struggling when it comes to prayer and faith because they don’t actually believe what the Word says. But after I prayed and believed I received, without
one single manifestation of my healing, I sat up in my bed, determined to get up and walk! No one was around to pick me up if I fell because my other relatives weren’t
there, and my mother was too weak to pick me up.
I took ahold of the bedpost and pulled myself up. I became dizzy, but I continued to pull myself up out of bed. I was still hanging on to the bedpost when everything stopped spinning. I wasn’t dizzy anymore. I began to have feeling in my legs, and it felt like a million pins were sticking me. It felt good even though it hurt! I soon felt normal and had complete feeling in my body! I
started walking around the room for a while, and I got up and walked again the next day.
I didn’t tell my family what I was doing because they would have cautioned me against it. In fact, when I finally did say something to my mother, it took me some time to talk her into getting my clothes for me. But the next morning I put on my clothes and walked to the breakfast
table. My grandfather looked at me and asked, “Has the dead been raised?” I told him, “Yes, God has raised me
up.”
After breakfast I went in and lay down and fell asleep for about ten minutes. When I awoke, I heard an audible voice (it was coming from outside, not from within my
spirit). The Voice that had told me to get up out of bed and walk had come from the inside — in my spirit. It was the Voice of God speaking to my spirit.
But this voice coming from the outside said, “. . . Forwhat is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away” (James 4:14). “And
today thou shalt surely die” (Isa. 38:1). I knew that both of those statements were from the Bible. James had said the first one and Isaiah had said to Hezekiah, “. . . Set
thine house in order: for thou shalt die, and not live” (Isa.38:1).
Then the thought came to me again that I was going to die. I got up then and sat in a chair in the room until 2:00 that afternoon, just waiting to die. I thought that voice was God talking to me.
But that afternoon while I was sitting there, from on the inside of me came the words, “With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation” (Ps. 91:16).
I didn’t pay any attention to those words, since I was preparing to die! But those words just kept coming to me.
It was like they were floating through me over and over on the inside; I didn’t realize it then, but they were coming from my spirit. The Holy Spirit was trying to guide me.
In Proverbs it says, “The spirit of man is the candle of the Lord . . .” (Prov. 20:27). God guides you through your spirit if you are born again. My spirit was trying to pass that truth from Psalm 91 on to my conscious mind. The
third time those words came floating up, I picked them up and toyed with them in my mind.
The fourth time I asked, “Who said that?” Something on the inside of me spoke up and said, “It’s the Ninety-First Psalm.” I looked it up and found where it was written. Then I jumped up and, holding my Bible, I kicked
my foot in the air and told the devil to get out of there! I told him that I wasn’t going to die. I told him that God had promised me long life.
Acting on God’s Word brings results. My battle was won by eradicating every image, imagination, vision, or thought that didn’t contribute to my believing for the thing which I had asked for.
