16/12/2025
I want to share this with you all, because this is what journeying really looks like ✨
I wrote these out (and a few others) and stuck them on my cupboard around 9 years ago — hahaha… if only I’d known what I was in for! Good Lord 😂🔥
My language has changed dramatically since then, but the hunger has remained the same.
I used to repeat these over and over, day after day. Sometimes I’d just lie there and stare at the words, imagining what it could be like to encounter the Kingdom in this way. I spent many hours in my room — reading, meditating, engaging in communion. Wholeheartedly desiring more of what God had to offer.
I was absolutely tired of words, of people’s ideas, of the stories of old. I wanted more, and I was willing to do whatever it took to experience it. At the time, I didn’t know what it would take to get me where I am today. I knew it would require the submission of self — but to what degree? That was a mystery.
To say God delivered on my desires would be an understatement. I’ve been blessed with spiritual encounters I couldn’t have even dreamt up (“what no mind has conceived”). I’ve been shown things unimaginable, taught things far beyond what I could have ever comprehended back then.
And the harsh reality? I’ve been broken in the midst of it all. It could be said that I died, so that the life I now live is the life of Christ. Death is required so that we can truly live.
And you know the best part of it all… when I wrote “Jesus, I want You to be my best friend,” that was the cry of a fractured soul — the trauma of a forgotten child. He made me whole again and showed me He’s always been there, and He’s always been my bestie. Sometimes we just need a wake-up call to remember 😉🤍
My intention with this post is to stir up courage — to break free. This came at a time when I was SICK of hearing the same old things, and my heart was ablaze 🔥 I needed, wanted, yearned for the MORE. I was willing to do absolutely anything for the manifestation of the fullness of truth in my heart and life.
I had already given up my job and my aspirations for financial wealth (which I’d spent the previous six years building). I went from living in plush capital cities with a flourishing career… to being back in my Gran’s spare bedroom 😅😆
I'd given up my desires for a Partner. And to be totally frank — being 26 and single with opportunities, wasn’t easy. But I laid it all down at His feet. A side note on this: for many, sexual relationships are the very thing that get in the way — but for the sake of this post, I won’t go into that here.
And perhaps most importantly, I had surrendered my will to His. I let go of the belief that I knew the best way forward and chose instead to trust His leading.
Full surrender is what’s needed. And it will look different for you than it did for me. There's no right or wrong way, there's just his way, in you! The outcome, however — THE KINGDOM, in all its glory ✨👑
It’s worth it. I promise. 🤍