21/03/2026
Shabbat Shalom unto all
My days have been full of nausea with dwindling effectiveness on meds, extremely broken strange sleep, lethargy, my brain drugged out on a cocktail of chemo and meds, jabs, medical devices and syringes often struggling to eat, sleep, drink, shower, sit, lay, much.
Even writing this I fell to a very broken sleep over 2 hours or so.
I just want Love, Reconciliation, Truth.
There is so much potential for true Unity for true and great moves of Yah like we have never seen before.
It seems many have not enjoyed my words, saying that I am not doing Godly things through such... When i am revealing the very things Yah himself wanted us to all sort ink Sukkot of 2024.
That same testimony many of you heard and cried at 2024 sukkot was such a thing for many of you.... yet I have been through worse at the very hands of many of the people that were closest to me at that time or times since... And hurt by the very things I saw in those people at that time that have been manifest in fuller and worse force in all this time since. To the point that entire testimony has been shadowed by the actions and events and situations since it.
Yah clearly said we all had to work on the small things, the subtle issues. And I made this known to those I could. It was moments where Yah had me on my knees again at that Sukkot 2024 before these years that would break me further.
And it is a year where my breaking would reveal the true hearts of those around me, and their true actions to situations. It would also show me their interactions with their words and actions...
I know many of you will not understand it all, I have only drip fed pieces, I am going through things none of you can understand and had a life full of more than most of you have ever seen... and hopefully thst none of you will ever ever ever have to see including those thst have broken me so deeply i still wish and pray the best each day for even those that harm me still.
But know I am at all times seeing the potential good even in those that have harmed me. I desire for our community to live up to true unity and servitude and I know we need change and The situations have been squandering my ability to leade those Yah leads unto me into our community as I cannot give them safe passage to safe places with full knowledge I am leading our new brothers into sanctuaries they deserve
My words flared much because as many know lies is one thing that infuriates me and especially amongst people who profess the name of Yah and Yeshua... And when I realised that leaders who have already blatantly lied have been lying to congregations and the public onwards that really sparked me. And unfortunately many dont understand the full fledged opportunity handed unto them for reconciliation that they shunned.
But through all this there is still one issue that is where it all stemmed from..
When my wonderful brothers Gavin and Sam warned of an older woman perhaps having power in dividing brothers in Sukkot of 2024 and many were so weary of our poor sister Erin... it was by no means her that these words were for even those who spoke such didn’t know. These words were in reference to Claudia always dressed in luxury and walking with accesories and car to match who was almost from the very sukkot of the year before where she met us all in a relationship with brother Tim of down south... a woman that would end up saying she had broken up with him after 2024 camp, contacting me like some poor broken woman and having me comfort her and convince her to stay in Perth and find community still. That she would when with me wear clothes of more questionable form closer to modern gym women and even worse than most worlds women around and shorter than what most women would wear. That she would spend hours on the phone with me, days in person and all of this whilst still with Tim and having me convinced she was well away from him and so scared of him and about how evil he had been and hoe he had goten angry for no reason and had put her life at risk... And unfortunately she has been scouting and messaging or contacting men from the day she entered the community to this day and seemingly destroying such men, speaking evil of them and often from what I experienced sparking snd causing situations where she attacks the very godly values of these men to incite their zealous reactions in disgust at her opposition to Yah and her showing zero remorse or wish to reconcile even stating to me that reconcilliation is not the way she thinks Yeshua and Yah wants things to be amongst believers at times and even when I end up jobless, with cancer she shed not one tear, looked not my way, nor said a word when all reconcilliationwas put in her hands by me for when she could descide to give a rue apology and show true remorse. And that my family is the woman your leaders stand with, that is the same heartless nature your leaders have shown me. She says she prayed for me, they said they attempted reconcilliation, and yet here I am never having received even a simple and meaningful apology from any of them. And they have stood strongly with things they clearly state or emphatically say they are against... And lie to everyone in the process...
Those leaders stated firm values, Avram especially on relationships even with a youth night and yet there he is with no care as to the woman he supports who went against it all and all the set balues he and Dorina and many stated whilst scolding me for speaking anything against Claudia that alligned eith the very thingd they state... and then Gabriel and Christabel who were supposedly so broken seeing Claudia and I in fights and unreconcilable (truly just on her end as I always pushed to true sorting and godly walking) and this couple even mediated a conversations and watched words said and made and that we were to keep... Yet when Claudia yet once more broke her words, closed the door and wouldnt speak or look my way on sabbath with me keeping a word to her that I would leave our reconcilliation and contact in her hands with a simple meaningful true believable apology from her to begin... Gabriel and Christabel seemed happy and fine seeing the very division and unreconcilliation they were so adamant against to even get involved in mediating... yet this time worse to where jobless and with cancer Claudia didnt show an inkling of heart or remorse not any wish to say a simple apology or reconcile over these entire 7 or so months. And for many sabbaths our leaders and my friends were happy with this.... as I broke down and cried almost every sabbath, crushed to see a heartless woman as her, to see my friends and leaders so heartless and standing with the things so far against our God and all this time since where they still cannot show simple apology, remorse nor anything else...
Unfortunately Amir and the Unity leadership holds connection with these parties and people, and as a group of leaders who are in the community and working together it is very saddening that even with such a council of men that these leaders and situations have occurred, these lies and the kicking of a brother so broken has been allowed.
But worst of all... is when I speak out about these things, when I decide I will stand for the name of truth, will stand against things happening in our community that are worse than the world and show the flaws and issues..
People yet push back at me, the one who speaks. The one who reveals. And many of you join in the adding to a broken poor lowly brother who has been largely broken and unsupported.
It is not my words that go against Yah or damage his reputation, and many in the world appreciate me bringing up the hypocrisy of the church and stating such and standing for what we believe. The issue is those saying what they believe, stating things of love yet showing lies and hatred unto the most broken and lowly amongst them and standing in unity for destruction... stsnding in unity of lies, unreconcilability and a cruelty i have never known in the entirety of my life from so many.
The issue is these things even occuring in our community and body, and that people like those who go against me on this are standing for such by such. We are meant to be standing for our beliefs! We are meant to be lights! How can so many of you stand for such darkness and destroy the broken lowly and sick like myself and stand with a system and with people that enjoy doing such! For if they had the heart they say they had this all would have been sorted thousands of times over.
I know many will speak against me for this yet again... many see me as the sole issue..
Seems like an ongoing theme in life... Standing alone, standing broken and standing for a potential good and the best world we could have and best communities when everyone loves things remaining dysfunctional destructive and woth me crushed and silenced and the small silent voice crying out in hopes of Love and true reconciliation amongst all...
If you want to continue to come against me its up to you. If you want to see actual unity and our community thrive you must realise these issues have got to be sorted. And the one who speaks out is not the one that should be destroyed at every sep of the way after being destroyed by those who were meant to be there for him in the first place.